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6 months on HRT

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So, today marks 6 months since I started HRT. I can tell you now going on HRT is the best thing I have ever decided to do. In this post I will go through the 6 main reasons why for me personally. 1. Mental. The mental relief of not checking/bothering if the NHS Gender Clinic waiting list has moved is a very big one. I was stressing all the time about it, wondering when it will move and seeing stories that the waiting list is not moving and the time is just getting longer. In fact, I have just checked the time now and they are still seeing people from June 2019. I don’t think this has moved now for over 4 years. 2. Boobs. I used to wear false boobs until I started on HRT. I wanted to wear more feminine tops for the 4 years that I was out as Transgender but not on HRT but I couldn’t wear low cut tops as you could easily tell they was false. Also some dresses I have you could easily see I was wearing them as well. I sometimes look at photographs of that time and think wow, look how far
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The US Elections

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So unless you have been living under a rock recently the US election has happened and Donald Trump will be the new US President in January. What was you thinking the people of the US?? This is obviously bad news for anyone that’s not a CIS white male in the US, and for LGBT+ people generally in the world. The Trump campaign ran over $120 million of Anti-LGBT+ ads during the election campaign, targeting mainly transgender people. Not only that, as a convicted felon far right people are also now chanting “Your Body, My Choice” when it comes to Women, Trans or cis. In other words women do not have a choice now when it comes to Birth Control or Abortion, or who they have sex with. There is also the troubling possibility that Elon Musk, the owner of Twitter/X, Space X and Tesla, will also be in the new Trump administration. The reason why this is troubling is because he owns Twitter/X, the social media Platform that is full of anti-LGBT+ people and has an outsize influence on world politic
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5 Months on HRT – Update

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So recently I passed 5 months on HRT. It still doesn’t feel real that after so long I am finally starting to find out who I really am and can start to live the life I should have started ages ago.  You see, its not just physical changes that HRT changes. It’s also mental. The one thing that baby trans (Transgender people who are not on HRT) people care about the most is getting on HRT. For Trans people who are on HRT the mind slowly starts to think about other things like what clothes should I get, what makeup do I like, what do I want my home to look like now I don’t have to pretend anymore. Then there is the sexual side of things. For a lot of trans people who start HRT they think they know their sexual orientation. For instance for me I have always thought I was Bi. Yet recently I have had an experience that was, well let’s just say it was mind blowing. It was just some fun, nothing in it romantically for either person and we both know that. This, along with the fact I don’t find me
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Confused

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There is only one thing that I am 100% sure on about myself. I am a Trans Woman. Getting on HRT is the best thing I have ever done for myself. I love the fact by body is becoming more feminine. But other than that I am a mess.  You see, I like women, but not in a sexual way anymore but on a friendship level. I don’t know if these days I could be in a relationship with one. Do I think a women could be beautiful, of course, any human can be beautiful, but would it feel right to be in a relationship with a woman? I’m not 100% sure anymore. Could I sleep with a female, probably not. I think 2 of my friends are drop dead gorgeous, funny, and we have a laugh about our looks etc. like all women friends do but if they, or any other female wanted to be in a relationship with me, could I, probably not. With men it’s the opposite almost. I like men, but in a sexual way, not a relationship way. Do I think men are beautiful, of course, some are. Would I like to sleep with them, yes. Would I like to
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HRT Update - Month 4 and Standing Tall.

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 Issue 4 of Standing Tall is now out, check it out here . HRT Update - Month 4 Well it’s been 4 months since I started HRT. This month has seen a lot of changes. My chest has started to grow and people have started to notice, some family members and close friends have told me that it is starting to be noticeable. Also I seem to be getting a lot of stares now when I am out and about of men, which can be creepy and affirming at the same time. While I personally cannot see the difference I can feel the difference and my chest has been having a lot of pins and needles, which I have been told is a good sign. I am still losing my strength. I was taking apart a bed base as a friend gave me one earlier last weekend and I could tell that I was getting tired a lot quicker and when pulling the fabric off the old base, it took a lot more effort than it would have done before I started HRT. The hairs on my body (I have really noticed it on my legs) are not growing as much, instead of having
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Transhealth care in the UK, and why it is broken.

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I am writing this the night a motion I put in to delay the implementation of the CASS report into transgender health care for under 18’s until the British Medical Association has done a review failed in my local CLP. The reason why I think it failed is people don’t seem to understand what this means for transgender youth and adults alike. I am going to list 4 arguments that was used to put it down and why I think (And this is my personal view) it failed. 1. I don’t want my 4yo daughter to go through this if she wanted to be transgender. No one is saying anything should happen to a 4yo child. What should happen is counselling with a professional with the child and parents. It doesn’t matter if the parents agree or not, what matters is what’s best for the child. 2. There is not enough evidence that puberty blockers are safe. Puberty Blockers, which is the ONLY medication that should be given to transgender youth, has been used on young girls since the 1970’s for a condition called Prec
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HRT Update - Month 3

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So, last week as the week I have been on HRT for 3 months. As I stated before here is my monthly update. I have had my 3 month blood tests done (Did then 2 months in so give time to get my next 3 months of HRT sorted before I ran out). My testosterone level dropped by half (yippee) and my Estrogen level went up by a quarter. I was expecting my Estrogen level to go up by that much but not my testosterone level to drop by half in 2 months, so really happy with the results. As a result of the blood tests, GenderGP recommended my Estrogen tablets get doubled to 2mg per day and my testosterone blockers to remain at the level they are, 5mg per day. This is what I am now on. As for do I feel any different. Mentally I feel a lot more comfortable in myself as I know things are on the way. Physically there have been some changes:-Skin. My skin feels a bit softer, not by much but I can tell it is getting softer and more sensitive. Smell. I think my smell is starting to change, and I don’t sweat
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