5 Months on HRT – Update

So recently I passed 5 months on HRT. It still doesn’t feel real that after so long I am finally starting to find out who I really am and can start to live the life I should have started ages ago. 

You see, its not just physical changes that HRT changes. It’s also mental. The one thing that baby trans (Transgender people who are not on HRT) people care about the most is getting on HRT. For Trans people who are on HRT the mind slowly starts to think about other things like what clothes should I get, what makeup do I like, what do I want my home to look like now I don’t have to pretend anymore.

Then there is the sexual side of things. For a lot of trans people who start HRT they think they know their sexual orientation. For instance for me I have always thought I was Bi. Yet recently I have had an experience that was, well let’s just say it was mind blowing. It was just some fun, nothing in it romantically for either person and we both know that.

This, along with the fact I don’t find men sexually attractive, means I am now certain of who I am sexually. I am a lesbian. Sorry fella’s lol.

Your friends change also, I would say 90% of my friends are now female. And of course, being the chatter boxes we are we talk. Over half of my friends now say they are fed up with how men treat them. Also with my single friends, a lot are also fed up with the stares men give them also. Before I started HRT I always thought how bad could it be? Well now I know. My chest area had grown a lot over the last few months, so much so that even some friends I don’t see often have said they have grown. I have also noticed, thanks to being hyper aware from my PTSD that I get a lot more stares these days of men when I am out and about.

For instance, this weekend when I was out with friends in a pub, my friend said I was getting attention from a lot of fella’s in it. I didn’t notice thanks to being drunk, as that does null the PTSD a lot, but she noticed it. I was shocked.

So for baby trans, be aware that HRT is more than just the physical changes you go through, its also the mental ones as well.