Kira Herdman

So recently I passed 5 months on HRT. It still doesn’t feel real that after so long I am finally starting to find out who I really am and can start to live the life I should have started ages ago.  You see, its not just physical changes that HRT changes. It’s also mental. The one thing that baby trans (Transgender people who are not on HRT) people care about the most is getting on HRT. For Trans people who are on HRT the mind slowly starts to think about other things like what clothes should I get, what makeup do I like, what do I want my home to look like now I don’t have to pretend anymore. Then there is the sexual side of things. For a lot of trans people who start HRT they think they know their sexual orientation. For instance for me I have always thought I was Bi. Yet recently I have had an experience that was, well let’s just say it was mind blowing. It was just some fun, nothing in it romantically for either person and we both know that. This, along with the fact I don’t find me

There is only one thing that I am 100% sure on about myself. I am a Trans Woman. Getting on HRT is the best thing I have ever done for myself. I love the fact by body is becoming more feminine. But other than that I am a mess.  You see, I like women, but not in a sexual way anymore but on a friendship level. I don’t know if these days I could be in a relationship with one. Do I think a women could be beautiful, of course, any human can be beautiful, but would it feel right to be in a relationship with a woman? I’m not 100% sure anymore. Could I sleep with a female, probably not. I think 2 of my friends are drop dead gorgeous, funny, and we have a laugh about our looks etc. like all women friends do but if they, or any other female wanted to be in a relationship with me, could I, probably not. With men it’s the opposite almost. I like men, but in a sexual way, not a relationship way. Do I think men are beautiful, of course, some are. Would I like to sleep with them, yes. Would I like to