Kira Herdman

I have recently upgraded my home network with some very cheap (without hard drives the total spend on the whole network was £65) hardware that does all my needs very well, and all my data is secure. Also importantly I wanted it to be as power efficient as possible, as we all know, power prices in the UK are stupid these days. Server So what have I done? Well I cheated a bit. That £65 was for the parts that I needed,  as I already had some of the hardware I needed. You will need a cheap Intel 4th gen PC and a case to hold 6 hard drives. These can be picked up for less than £100 these days as well. So what is my network and what services does it do. Well the centre of my network is my TrueNAS server. The specs are as follows :- Intel Core I5 4400s CPU 16Gb Ram (2 x 8Gb) 2 x 500Gb Laptop Hard Drives 2 x 2Tb WD Red Hard Drives 2 x 3Tb WD Red Hard Drives Cheap motherbard with 4 SATA Ports 2 SATA PCI Express expansion card. This runs TrueNas Scale. This is the old Office PC, the case I alrea

I’m going to be blunt in this blog post on how I currently feel. I am scared. I am not scared of going out as my true self, or correcting people when they mis-gender me. No, I am scared of letting anyone in. Every time someone gives me a compliment online, I get scared. Scared they just see me as a fantasy, scared that if I get to close they will push me away. Scared of rejection. I didn’t use to be this way. I was always shy, even as a kid, but never scared. As I have talked about before, I don’t have many friends, as I have never let anyone get close to me. The friends I do have I very rarely let go easily, always try and see the good side of people. This has come to light very recently when I have discovered a friend has done some stuff I don’t want to talk about, most people have abandoned him, but I still care what happens to him. I hate him for what he has allegedly done, but I still care about him as a friend. But when it gets to letting someone in closer, I just push people awa

A few months back, I think I blogged about this, I thought I hit a dead end when it came to trying to get on pre-emptive HRT or Homone Replacement Theraphy. Well it looks like there is another avenue to get on it. As in my last blog post - PReP, what is it and why should every trans woman should get it – a few months back I went to my GP saying my Gender Dysphoria was getting worse. Basically every morning and night I felt like I want to chop a certain peice of my body off between my legs. I hate seeing it, I hate it when I have to goto the toilet. The look of it makes me want to physically be sick, knowing it is part of me. My GP reffered me to a Sexual shrink at Brook, the local sexual health clinic in my home town. It has probably so far been the best thing that has happened to me since coming out as Transgender. First off, she kicked but to get me on PReP, which I am glad to say I am now on. While getting on PReP the clinic also gave me a once over, sexually and I came back all cl