Mental Health Struggles and MSM.

Over the last few weeks I have been struggling with mental health, namely feeling like no one wants me, Gender Dysphoria and my PTSD, which is coming to the season when I always struggle with it.


With regards to my PTSD, I have not been sleeping well, I never do from now until about February. That I can live with as I know what it is and how to deal with it. My Gender Dysphoria has been hitting me quite hard recently as well, especially when I goto bed or wake up. I just want to chop off what’s in between my legs off most of the time. Also, when I look in the mirror and see my chest, I hate it. There should be lumps there instead its flat as a door nail. I just hate my body with a passion, but it's the hand that I have been dealt with. We just have to fight through it. I have found out I might be able to go private for Hormones instead of waiting for the NHS to deal with me. Already been waiting 2 years and I can wait a lot longer before I even get a first appointment. It’s just too long, sometimes I just want to give up on life.

Finally, recently I have been struggling with loneliness. If it was not for a neighbour and my cat, I would defiantly not be here now. So, thank you, you know who you are. I’m also getting really fed up with Men treating me like a piece of meet online. For instance, I got a message today “are you pre op or post op”. Sorry??? That’s none of your effing business. Let's just say he got a nasty message back and blocked.

Why can people not distinguish that Sex and Gender are to separate things. I might have a man’s body, but my brain is female.

There is a constant attack on us by Mainstream Media. They keep asking stupid questions like how can a woman have a man’s genitals. They forget there are people who have both men and woman’s genitals, they are called intersex people. Nature is not perfect. Sometimes it messes up. It has with me, it has with my trans brothers and sisters. We have the wrong brain to what we sex we was assigned at birth.

With all these attacks by Mainstream Media what they are going is putting us in danger. Hate crime is on the rise, yet they seem shocked about it when the figures where published. Why? You are a good part of the reason why it’s raising. All so you can get clicks or sell a few more copies.

It's disgusting, it effects a lot of us mentally as well. It does me, I am just good at hiding it, like a lot of us are. We are good at it as we have been doing it for a long time. I hope at least one journalist reads this and thinks twice before writing a transphobic answer again. At least talk to us transgender people before printing stories about us.

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