I have just got something that will massively help with my Gender Dysphoria.

Although since coming out I have been a lot happier than I have ever been but I have had, and still have Gender Dysphoria. Every trans person I know has it in one form or another.

How has Gender Dysphoria hit me?

For me it hits me hardest in 2 areas, Facial Hair and down below. Facial hair was easy to mitigate a lot, I shave every day. The other one not so much. Recently it has gotten a lot worse. I delt with it wrong for 2 reasons.

1. I never told anyone about it. It was driving me nuts inside so much so that I was thinking of self harming. Something you should NEVER do but when GD hits you, it hits you hard.

2. Something I saw on Amazon. Its for cross dressers but I got one to try. It came today and I am wearing it. A lot of the GD has subsided a lot since I started to wear it. There are 2 pics below. One of what I am on about and the other of me wearing it.

Why does this matter.

Well "the bulge" as I call it these days is something I can not stand. Every time I see it I literally want to get a knife and chop it off. That is how much I hate it. I know it is a bad thing to do but it was driving me nuts. At lease this thing, which BTW is probably the best £16 I have ever spent, hides it and makes me look in my eyes reasonable. Shared this picture with some people on Facebook and people have commentated it looks natural.

What does this mean in the grand scheme of things

Well for me it means I can now wear Jean's, Trousers etc without the "bulge" but a more natural look for the Gender that I identify with. Some people have said why am I wearing skirts when it was the middle of winter, will Gender Dysphoria is the reason why.

It basically makes me feel a lot better in myself. While my Gender Dysphoria is still there of course, and when I am not wearing it or I have to go to the toilet it will hit me like a truck, but this will hopefully stop me from self harming.

You can not put a price on that.

Self Harming

This is the first time I have ever admitted that I wanted to self harm over this. I didn't realize how bad it was until I put this on. The smile on my face was so big, it was like coming out all over again. If I didn't get this I suspect I would be dead before the Gender Clinic ever gave me an appointment. 4 years is war to long with no support what so ever. This is a life saver.