Dealing with PTSD at it's worse.

Well since this is my first post of 2022, Happy New Year ! !

As you know, I have been quiet for about a month. This is not because there has not been an news to write about, it's because of this time of year. My PTSD always plays up around this time and last year was no exception.

For a couple of weeks last month, I couldn't go further than the corner shop and for a week of that I couldn't even go out of the house without shaking. I don't like to show it to other people but I even had to tell my cousin not to come down for our weekly movie watching session. I just did not want to be near anyone or talk to anyone either.

To top all this off, I think I spaced out a few times as well, though of course I don't remember any of it. It was just say 12 noon then happened to be 5pm the next minute for me. This doesn't happen to be a lot but when it does it is very unsettling. For me the most serious things I suffer from is anxiety and hyper awareness, which tbh gets very tiering.

To top all this off, I was under review for PIP though out this. I got 0 points. 0. Is this a joke. All the questions about the PIP is all physical, there is nothing physically wrong with me (well nothing for a 46yo that carries injuries from her service to the country like a knackered ankle and my synaptic nerve that likes to play up a few times a year) all my problems are mental. This has to change. Yes I am appealing it, like I had to last time. I am glad I was expecting it to be turned down but I did expect to get a few points, not 0.

Anyways, I should be back doing weekly posts from now on so see you next week and once again, Happy New Year, Stay safe and wear a mask if you have to go out.